So this week’s blog….it’s kinda work related kinda not, let me explain.
I’ve been off work ill again for the past couple of weeks hoping to return to work this Sunday. Again most people would love a couple weeks off to chill, it’s not exactly relaxing when you’re in excruciating pain.
But for the couple of hours a day I feel more like a human being I am as productive as I can be (I should probably continue resting, but I hate sitting around). So I’ve have some food, a shower, read and then I come on my laptop.
I’ve spent the past couple of weeks updating my portfolio, signing to new casting websites, contacting agents and creating my showreel.
Now I would have be able to complete all these tasks if I wasn’t playing ‘The Waiting Game’.
‘The Waiting Game’, is the state of limbo that I am currently in as I am ‘waiting’ on properties from previous jobs such as; footage from a short film – which I know has been completed, editing from a music video, my voiceover clips from a job, images from a couple of different photoshoots, (One of them the count is currently at 4 months approx., and that’s nothing I once had to wait over a year).
These people are other professionals in the industry and colleagues that I have worked with. I know some things take time and some things are out of the control of my colleagues, like health problems, not being able to finish shooting due to issues with the band, or if I was a TFP job and someone has to prioritize a paid job over me, that’s fine, I do get it and I’m genuinely an understanding person and I don’t usually let things like this bother me but now it’s got to the points where I now need some of these to apply for certain jobs.
Two of what I mentioned above I know I am getting back my work because the people have explained the situations and kept up to date and informed. Unfortunately the rest of what I mentioned I think is a lost cause…
So how much to I continue to pester, or do I give up? Trouble is the longer it takes, the lazier it makes me seem.
This is why I said this is kinda work related and not, because I realized I am playing this game constantly! I am constantly waiting for something or on someone to allow me to do the next thing. Basically I need to change things up a bit, change the plan but not the goal (pretty sure that’s a quote I saw on Instagram). I need to become more reliant on myself, if I can’t update my modelling portfolio edit my showreel, if I can’t do that write some blogs, if I can’t do that I should work, spend time with my family, go the gym, have a social life, travel and live a little.
Life certainly won’t wait around for me, so I’m not going to spend it waiting on anyone or anything xxx