Leap of Faith

IntIt’s been a long time since I last posted a blog…since the first week of January to be exact and there are a number of reasons for this. Health. Friends. Family. Work and ultimately I had lost the desire to continue writing.

I don’t think my writing style is the most enticing or what I had to write was very interesting but that is all about to change, maybe, because I quit my job, I left my family home and moved to London to pursue a career in acting and modelling. Yup you read it right. If you’re a friend of mine you’ve probably already aware of what’s going on.

If not then stay tuned.

I could basically fill up this blog with a load of ‘take a chance’ quotes but I’ll save them for my twitter and Instagram, well there might still be a couple..

This move has been a plan of mine for some time now, a lot longer than I realised, apparently since I saw my first West End show back when I was about 9. I got to see Les Miserables as part of a group trip with my drama club, I was stunned to say the least. The lights, the costumes, the harmonies and the stage! It moved! And that was it for me I went home to my mom and dad told them that’s where I want to be and that’s what I want to do.

Which brings us to now. I’m doing it, well kinda. I’m here, in London. For me personally that was half the battle, this year while I was in hospital (after my operation) I had one of those iconic light bulb moments where I said to myself if I don’t do this now I never will.

Now I’m very much a realist, I know this isn’t going to be easy being a freelance artist, I know I’ll compare myself to others succeeding, I know I’ll have to get used to my own company, I’m gunna have to get used to going to the gym more than once a week, I will perfect my craft and go to castings/auditions A LOT of them, but all of this makes me even more curious.

Being in the unknown is pretty scary, but I’m trying to replace my fear with my desire and drive for what I’m pursuing, if nothing else at least I can say I’ve tried.

I’ve only been here about three weeks and so far so good. I’ve had a professional modelling job already, booked in a couple more and applied for dozens of castings so now we wait, I’ll report back when the next exciting event happens. Hopefully that won’t be another 8 months down the line xx

The 'Real' Makeup of Makeup Artists

Every girl knows the tagline ‘Maxfactor the real makeup of makeup artists’

Funny thing is I don’t think I’ve ever seen a makeup artist use anything from the Maxfactor range..ever.

Whenever I work with a makeup artist I am always fascinated by what makeup they use, brushes and if they have any tips or tricks for me. They always seem to have copious amounts of makeup with them, it’s always a suitcase full. And when I say full, I mean they are usually bursting at the seams and these are usually just the essentials.

From seeing what the makeup they use I’ve built up my own little collection of makeup to use for photoshoots based on their recommendations. Here’s what I have so far:

• Maybelline mascara’s

• L’Oréal concealer

• Urban Decay’s primer

• Nars Blusher

• Nyx Eyeshadows

• Mac foundation

The other recommendations I’ve been given:

• Kryolan

• Graptobian

• Rcma

• Makeup forever

• Naked

With the power of the internet, my mothers staff discount card for boots and maybe some stock fillers for Christmas I’m sure I’ll do able to build up quite a collection, maybe not quite as good as a makeup artists but I’ll certainly give it a shot.

Who knows if you’re a fan of your makeup maybe you should drop a couple of hints..there’s still time to get a couple of last minute gifts for Christmas xxx

A Models Day Off..

While most models run from show to show (especially during fashion week) and most who are not supermodel status have multiple fittings, casting calls and are running around with iPhones in hand; most have some common practices when not on the runway or at a photo shoot.

Models Are Still In Style.

The key behind being a successful model is a very simple concept – marketing. Even when models or supermodels are not scheduled, their appearance and reputation is everything whether they have been in a national publication or in a local fashion show. This means not leaving the house in your sweats or without combing your hair. There are simple fashion tips most can take advantage of, as most models always look fashionable even if they are not on the runway or at a photoshoot.

Model Off-Duty Hair.

There are several ways to get model off-duty hair, but the following are insider industry secrets and not common day-to-day knowledge. These secrets are for getting perfectly imperfect fabulous model looking hair. First, a less than a perfect blowout is key – slightly messy is very sexy; which also translates into romantic and beautiful. Try an air dry. Most models want to avoid curling irons and hair dryers on their day off, so they opt for an air dry while using a subtle styling. Last, if you want model off-duty hair, you want to invest in great shampoos and conditioners. Most women have to deal with hair abuse on a minor level, if they colour their hair the bar raises a notch and when it comes to models they have to deal with their hair being abused on a daily basis.

Models On Vacation.

Models are expert travellers. Many models start off with honey and water for breakfast; but the most important tip that they share is lots of water and lots of sleep. Taking care of your skin is also a number one priority and this isn’t just sunscreen, but a healthy morning and evening skin regime. In fact, most models avoid the sun period during the summer months.

Models Day off Around The Town.

Most models would say sleep here is priority number one, and not hitting the bar scene the second they are off duty. While they still stick to a structured exercise routine and a healthy diet, their off-duty activities include what most people do. This includes visiting family if they are local, heading out to parks, movies, hitting up a spa for a relaxing massage among anything else most would consider a relaxing day-off activity xxx

Hairburst Review

Every woman has different problems with their hair. Some struggle with split ends, others have trouble with thinning hair, the majority of us can’t obtain the shine, length or volume they desire.

I fit firmly in the middle camp, I’ve got thinning hair and I’ve been struggling with hair loss due to the copious amounts of medication that I have taken for years, that combined with normal styling with straighteners/curlers and during my 3 years at uni my hair went through a variety of colours.

I strive for longer, thicker, fuller hair. I’ve been tempted to get hair extensions for years but was put off by the cost and maintenance of them. So I decided to look at shampoos and tablets. This time I brought Hairburst capsules, one of the most raved about hair vitamins on the internet, my Instagram feed is filled with ‘Before and After’ pictures. Now I’ll admit I was pretty skeptic, I mean we all know how those pictures can be faked with either hair extensions, photoshop or just clever hairstyling so I was pretty anxious to get started and see if anything would occur.

After 2 weeks, I was considering giving up. I didn’t notice a thing, but I figured I had nothing to lose by continuing the regimen. I already had the product, and I brought the 3 month pack with 3 bottles containing 60 capsules (it’s cheaper that way). Perhaps I was being too impatient.

After a month, I realized I was being too impatient. I noticed some small signs that my hair was improving: less hair was coming out in the shower, my hair was strangely thicker and felt stronger.

These weren’t massive improvements but now I have finished the 3 month pack. I’ve noticed some serious improvements in my hair. It’s thicker, stronger, and more brilliant than before and my hair seemed more lustrous. It’s much, much stronger than a three months ago and it doesn’t crack when I’m straightening it or curling it like it used to. It’s less brittle and actually feels soft and plush when I run my hands through it, it looks longer to the naked eye. I’m not sure if you can see much difference in my before and after pictures (which you can view on my Instagram) but I can notice it myself.

The only problems I have with the product is that it’s kinda expensive, and it takes much longer than sprays or shampoos to be effective. But I think it will remain consistent as opposed to wearing off like with a spray when the moment you stop using it stops working.

All in all, it’s a good product. My hair became thicker, longer, stronger and altogether healthier, not longer as promised. On the downside, it takes a while to work. It’s also a bit pricey (£60 for the 3 month supply from Holland and Barratt)..but I think I’m gunna give it another go. I may not have mermaid locks yet but maybe one day my hair will be strong enough to use like Sindel from Mortal Kombat (I’m wondering how many of you will get that reference)

Remember everyone’s hair is different. If you want your hair to improve in any way give it a go, if you do give it time and let me know how it goes xxx

Untitled

I apologise for not posting a blog last week. In all honesty I didn’t forget I seem to be experiencing the dreaded ‘writers block’. I don’t think any inspiration has even come back but I had the feeling that if I just started writing something the words will come…

Yeah that didn’t work.

So I may just ramble a bit and see what happens.

For those of you that have watched fashion shows before you know that when you watch a show we see some of the most beautiful women in the world showing off their spectacular bodies with the confidence that is the envy of many. You might think that you could never be as sure of yourself and your body as they are but many of these models are not all they appear to be. Behind their façade of confidence, many models suffer from severe insecurity.

You Need To Look Better

Imagine for a moment that throughout your life, people are telling you to be thinner, look more tanned, and generally look better. Everyday people are telling you that you can do better, you aren’t good enough. How would that make you feel? People can take the occasional criticism but constant, every day of every year; that is a lot to handle. Many models don’t handle the stress well and suffer from the constant voice in their head telling them that they don’t look good enough. Maybe now we are getting closer to understanding how these seemingly perfect looking models aren’t quite as perfect as we imagine.

Finding somewhere to Belong

The main thing every person craves is to find somewhere they fit in. Being able to relate to other people is key to any friendship. There are not a lot of people in the world with similar experiences to models which can give them difficulty finding that acceptance. When we feel like we don’t belong it can make us feel uncomfortable and eventually leads to us questioning ourselves. Understanding is hard to come by when others think that you have it all. Models are perceived as successful, beautiful and have nothing to trouble them. It is understandable that these opinions from others make them feel unsure of themselves.

Reality is any artist that doesn’t live a normal lifestyle can struggle with day to day activities, I’m not saying this for sympathy or anything like that. It’s just to make people more aware and think a bit that’s all.

Well that blog didn’t turn out too bad. Did it? xxx

Building a Modelling Portfolio

An actor friend of mine recently asked for advice on how to break into the modelling industry. After getting over myself, I gave him a brief explanation, as much as I could on messenger without it looking overwhelming.

Now I’ve had some time to think about it, I’ve got some more to say. The main question he asked was ‘how do you get the work?’

I think my answer to that disappointed him, I’ve built up a good reputations and mainly work on recommendations as well as being with a couple of agencies.

But before you even think of agencies you need a strong portfolio.

If you think about it in the same way as applying for a regular job, you need some basic knowledge and experience.

A portfolio is exactly that.

Showing that you know what you’re doing. You know what lighting works best for you, what angles are good, how to work with the camera.

Unfortunately in order to build up a portfolio it usually means doing a lot of shoots for free. It is known as TFP (time for print), neither you or the photographer or MUA is getting any money from this. It is purely for portfolio basis.

You will be doing these shoots for sometime until you have a decent sized portfolio. I still do them every so often just as a refresher.

The point of a portfolio is to show how good are you are at modelling. Make sure it shows your personality, how diverse you are. Unless you’re going into a specific area of modelling e.g fitness model, hair model you need to show that you’re a chameleon.

To organise and book these shoots there are quiet a few legitimate modelling casting websites. I won’t go into that now (that’ll be a whole separate blog) Besides what works for one person might not work for another, as long as you do your research you’ll know which is right for you.

You can also use the power of social media, mainly facebook. There are plenty of modelling groups on facebook that’ll be based in your area, your country, even some that post international shoots if you happen to be holidaying somewhere nice and sunny with good scenery why not take advantage

Once you have a portfolio in place be sure to have two copies. One that is an online copy on a website or facebook page with a wide range of pictures. The other should be a hard copy, a physical portfolio with a dozen of your best pictures that you can take to castings with you.

That’s all I’ve done. So good luck and I’ll see you out there! xxx

Forever in Line

I hate going to castings. I know they are an important part of being a model but sometimes I wish they’d just book from my pictures.

I know, it sounds like I am whining. Going to castings are like interviews, you just have to do it to get the gig, but what if you had to interview every single week for a job you do every single day? It gets sort of old. I mean, how often does the same casting director have to see you before they get an idea about what you look like?

That One Casting

I remember one casting that I went to that was just ridiculous. An agent sent me to an open-casting for a fashion week show. Now normally when my agent sends me somewhere I don’t have to worry about there being a lot of people. I’m with a pretty good agency. So I generally don’t have to go to the castings that more amateur girls go to, but this one was different.

This show was looking for ‘fresh faces’, faces they haven’t seen before. Since I had never worked with this casting director, I qualified as a ‘fresh face’ and the agent didn’t hesitate to send me.

I wish he had.

When I got to the location, there were about 150 girls waiting in line. I could tell that most of them were not agency models. They showed up in party dresses, gaudy clothes, and things I wouldn’t wear even if they were paying me. One girl had a pair of shoes that drew more attention than her face! Sure, she was rocking those stilettos, but good luck remembering what her face looked like.

I amused myself by rating the girls in my mind on a scale of 1-10 – sort of like what I imagined the casting directors were doing inside. Girls with un-proportional shapes, awkward walks, and loud personalities rarely scored above a 4. I counted 75 girls that I would have scored that way. The girls who looked like they’ve actually been to a casting call before were few- maybe like a dozen or so. You could easily recognize them with their solid white or black shirts, skinny jeans and a nice pair of heels.

After I spent nearly an hour playing ‘guess who makes it through’ I turned my attention to the girls standing immediately in front of me. There was this girl, a 5’10 brunette with attitude oozing out of her in front of me. I noticed her bra-strap hanging out of her blouse as she leaned impatiently on one leg.

“Excuse me,” I tapped on her shoulder.

When she turned around, I noticed her face. Sure, she was pretty. But she had enough makeup to do three photo shoots back-to-back.

“Yeah?” oozed out of her.

“Your strap is showing,” I smiled at her, nodding my head at her shoulder. Lifting her over-manicured finger, complete with diamond insets and a sunset, she popped the bra-strap back into place. Without any type of gratitude, she turned around and shifted her weight to the other leg.

I didn’t see her after that casting. I was kind of wishing I would. She definitely had potential, she just need a little – well, a lot of guidance.

My deep thoughts about the pretty girl with the attitude were interrupted by the sounds of a slamming door and high heels stomping out of the room. There goes another one of my fours.

How I love the casting game.

Chronically Motivated

I named this weeks blog Chronically Motivated as it sounded a lot more inspiring then ‘let’s get back to the gym’.

I say back to the gym because I haven’t been to the gym in quiet some time, a couple of months in fact. I know it’s bad but it’s been for genuine reason, my health (of course) like your surprised.

Now I’m starting to feel better and I want to get back to my healthy lifestyle.

Since I had my worst flare up which was about 2 years ago I have adapted a healthier lifestyle, I eat a lot better and I’ve been going to the gym for just over a year. The purpose of this was so that whenever I next get ill I am that little bit stronger to fight my condition.

Considering I’ve never exercised before in my life I thought I was doing pretty well..but I stand corrected. I have been inspired by a professional body builder who I believe has colitis and a colostomy bag and she is ripped!

It is incredible to see! I didn’t think people with my condition or similar could actually transform their bodies like that because of the way digestive illnesses are and how they breakdown food but I have definitely been proven wrong.

I’m not saying I want to be a body builder I’m saying I need to be stricter with myself, my diet and exercise regime needs to be more disciplined and like anything else by documenting it will encourage me to stick to it.

What is really sweet is how supportive my family are about this, especially my brothers. They are helping me out without even realising it! The one brother which I still live with has recently become vegetarian and so is teaching me all about food, what to cook, what meals I can make, what’s still good for protein and calories. My other brother is in the army is obviously enjoys his fitness and loves going to the gym. He brought me a book from Mens Health called ‘Big Book of Exercises’ and he is teaching me more about the training side, and what kind of routine to have, rest days, your primary and secondary muscles stuff like that.

So combining the knowledge that they are both sharing with me and whatever research I do on my own I should be alright.

As I said I am doing this for health benefits. It’s time I started making my health my number one priority. I am a firm believer in that exercising and eating right won’t cure me, that’s not me being negative – that is fact, because that is not how my illness works but it might keep me well for a little bit longer. Especially as my illness is usually caused by environmental factors and is more stress related, but then again going to the gym and realising whatever stresses might help me control my illness more. I am doing this for strength purposes, as I mentioned earlier to help me fight my condition when I next fall ill and maybe the deterioration in my health won’t be so drastic.

This is where writing this blog comes in. I know my blog is usually for professional purposes but seeing as things are a little bit slow at the moment I thought that once a month I will write a blog dedicated to my health and fitness journey. This will help me keep focus, educate myself and actually stick to something.

I know most people post about their ‘gym journeys’ after they’ve achieved their goal but I think why not write as I’m going through it. It will be hard and a struggle, so why not struggle together xxx

The Art of Self Promotion

What makes you different from the rest? This can be a confronting question to answer – the curse and lure of SELF PROMOTION (tooting your own horn, in other words.) In my personal experience there are two types of categories that make this topic interesting and controversial. Having discerned these differences – excusing my blatant stereotyping and generalising – there are those that love hearing their own praises and those that love singing their own praises. One does not discriminate over the other – both are valid entry points for the elusive and tricky task of Self Promotion.

Arguably these are times of the maverick – independent thought provokers who are influencing instantly. Viral videos can spell overnight success for innocent and humorous commentators. With celebrities and artists; whether recording, performing or traditional modes, there is a need for clear and direct points of view.

Is it easier to sing your own praises when you have an alter-ego to hold the weight of your accomplishments? Writers can use fake names, designers are under an umbrella of a huge conglomerate company and there are those with different social media profiles (CatFish, though that’s a bark of a different kind).

We know the beauty industry is a competitive business. Models are constantly being weighed – no pun intended – against one another for bookings. It is no surprise in the age of Instagram that models are taking their careers to different heights by promoting their lives. Naomi Campbell is no shrinking violet. Known for her vivacious personality, striking looks and biting tongue, she is never one to back down from a challenge or afraid of telling everyone her attributes. Kate Moss, on the other hand, has never been interested in taking interviews or selling herself – at least verbally – but those close to her are quick to say what a pleasure she is to work with because of her youthful spirit.

Finding pleasure in validation is only half of the equation when choosing to Self-Promote. We are told from an early age speaking about personal accomplishments reeks of arrogance. Having looked into the different ways in which people relate to the world (in true pop psychology), it’s not what you say, but how you say it. It’s not what you do, but how you do it for your own personal circumstances.

There are a few universal rules to Self-Promotion that if adhered to can aid with the pride and pleasure of selling yourself to the right market. Censorship is important; being modest will allow others to transcend your message – life is best when there is mystery and wonder so we can anticipate more from each other and from ourselves. Being obvious in the delivery of your talents (whatever you bring to the table – professional or otherwise) solidifies your objectives, dreams and promises. The most daunting part of the process is perhaps picking a lane of interest and running wild in it. There is definitely a quiet dignity in refining and moulding yourself in the eyes of the public – a lifelong adventure that is not as easy as creating something you love and putting it out there.

No matter which of the two types you may fall into – sometimes it’s a combination of both – there is no denying that it comes down to you. Remember, tooting your own horn is just another way of letting people know you’ve arrived, when done with a healthy dose of humility xxx

Your shoot or mine

Just curious…how many of you have ever thought about dating a male model?

It’s easy to see how it can be tempting they are attractive, they understand your career, and they make excellent arm candy. If you find the right one, they are truly a female model’s best friend.

But there are some challenges to dating a male model; way beyond finding one that is heterosexual or actually interested in anyone other than himself with male models you have to be able to separate the real from the fake, because just like many things in a model’s life they aren’t always what they seem.

I once dated a male model (very briefly) before I realised what I was truly looking for in a relationship. We had met in-between shoots, I was wrapping up with a photographer and this model showed up early for the photographer’s next shoot. As the photographer was recharging cameras, changing lights etc, I got talking to this model and we developed some chemistry off-camera. It wasn’t that he was attractive; I get the luxury of dealing with attractive guys all the time it was his personality. I connected with him on a personal level, making him seem like he was real (unlike everyone else in this industry).

But that is where it ended.

Our first date consisted of him talking about all the shoots he had been on. Our second date was all about his pet peeves and favourite designers, and on our third date he invited me to be his date at a runway show party.

After a while, it felt more like a job interview than a date.

And that is the challenge of dating male models. When your job is to be attractive, you tend to look for mates that add to your career rather than hinder it. Male models cannot afford to be seen with ugly girls, and female models are an easy solution. A female model is a pre-screened mate; guaranteed not to detract from the value of your brand.

Dating a male model has its perks, but it can be challenging. You have to be able to separate the guys that are actually looking for a relationship from those that are looking for career advancement, and it can be tricky, like applying individual eyelash extensions tricky. It’s not impossible though.

Male models can be boyfriend material, but just like any other guy you have to be selective. If you can find that one guy that is actually interested in you and you are able to talk about things other than work consider it a score xxx

Networking Tips

How many times have you been told that an acting career is all about networking? I’m guessing about a million and one, right? Well, there’s definitely a lot of truth to that statement, and you’d be a fool not to take it seriously.

If you want to be successful, working on your craft should be your number one concern, but let’s face it: Talent is not enough. That’s why you have to know how to network. 

But what exactly does ‘networking’ mean? Some actors believe it’s about going to the right parties so they can meet the right people. Others think it’s all about kissing the right asses. Those are both valuable skills, but sorry, they have nothing to do with real networking.

Simply put, networking is creating relationships with industry professionals who might be able to help you in a direct or indirect manner.

1. Be professional

Adopting the right tone when you communicate is essential, as are correct spelling and grammar – no text-speak or slang. Keep messages brief, polite, professional and to the point.

You will meet thousands of contacts throughout your career, and forget most of them, unless you keep a record. Create a contacts file on your computer, and a profile for each person you have ever met in the business – every fellow student, tutor, playwright, actor, director, etc.; what they look like, where you met them, and so on. Add new people every week, and update once a month.

This isn’t school, where it’s cool to do as little as possible; this is the business where graft counts. To stay in the game for the long term, it’s important to remember to cultivate contacts in the generation before you as well as the established figures you meet. In ten years’ time the fresh-faced wunderkind you vaguely remember could be producing a movie with you in it – if they know who you are.

2. Start with those you know

You already have a network. The people you train with are your most valuable asset – there is a bond there which may survive a lifetime, so stay in contact and share those contacts. This is not just a matter of swapping names, it’s about going to see people in shows, meeting casting directors and writers and theatre directors, and then keeping a log of those you’ve met.

If you hear of a job going for someone you know, tell them. If you can recommend them, even better. Like for you, these initial contacts will gradually widen their own circles of contact and influence. Some of the people you share grotty flats with and see at old school reunions will end up running the very companies you’re both desperately trying to get work with now. Staying in contact with each other and promoting each other throughout your careers is essential.

3. Never turn down an invitation

Most actors tend to isolate themselves when they’re not working, and then reconnect when they are. But it is impossible to tell when you will make a valuable contact – and for that reason you must go to any gathering you can, to learn, and to network. This is especially true of something you’ve actually been invited to, and can gain entry for free!

Get out there, and meet people in the flesh. Go to first nights, to talks, to festivals. If you are invited to a play reading, be there, and stay and talk afterwards. Somewhere out there are people who could employ you, and would do so if they know you existed. Go find them.

4. Be the first to keep in touch

If you go to see a show you like, send a message of thanks to the director. Again, keep messages brief (two lines is good), businesslike and positive. If you get a casting, ditto: a short message of thanks to the director, producer and casting director. Let people know if you have a show on – send emails to everyone on your contact list.

These rules are not to be applied sometime, or next week, or when you feel like it. If you are serious about this career, they should be applied now, today, every day. Your next job may depend on it.

5. However, do not overstay your welcome

Majority of people will appreciate you coming over to pay them a compliment or strike a quick conversation about their work. However, don’t forget to leave them some breathing space and split when you feel the time is right (after making a connection, obviously). Plus, it isn’t such a bad idea to get to know more than one industry folk during these gatherings. Once you have charmed the soul out of that producer, let them miss you while you go and find your next target.

Ever heard the saying ‘It’s not what you know it’s who you know?’ xxx

What Picture?!

So this week I’m doing something a little different.

I’m not writing a blog, instead I’m creating a vote of some sort. As I need help, your help!

During the past couple of weeks I’ve caught up with some friends who all had one thing in common, they are all doing very well for themselves, in their careers in particular.

Of course I’m happy for them all, they all deserve it, they work hard, they network, they do everything right and yet I can’t help but feel a twinge of jealously.

One friend in particular is doing really well for himself, I met him for drinks last week. I went to meet him at a function room in a hotel in town, he was attending a works do, I hung outside the room for a moment and poked my head in the door looking for him. I spot him laughing and joking with colleagues, as he sees me he says his goodbyes and shakes a few hands.

Naturally the function he attended was an immediate topic, although I don’t quite understand his job (an engineer of some sort) I listen intently try to make sense of what he’s saying, nod and smile. At some point during the conversation he mentions that he met someone that night who would be a good contact for him so they exchange business cards and jokingly gives one to me, I stuff it in my purse and complete forgot about it.

Until earlier today I found it again in my purse and thought to myself why don’t models or actors have them? I mean we have so many varieties of portfolios all over the place, showreels, websites, Instagram, twitter, facebook pages, but no-one really caries around a portfolio book anymore or C.V’s or a physical print of their pictures, but why not? It’s another way to network, social media networking had to expand from it.

In a couple week’s time I am going to the Edinburgh fringe festival, although I’m not going there for business purposes I think it will be a good chance to try out a business card, there are numerous of comedians, musicians and performance artists that will be there. Having something on hand to give to them, it couldn’t hurt, after all it could just take one call?

So here’s where I need your help. The design of the card. I think I will have the wording on one side and a picture on the other. But what picture? I have a few to choose from (you’ve probably noticed). So below I’ve selected a few images that are my personal favs. Any vote, comments or input will be greatly appreciated xxx

Just So You Know, I’m Not Posting for the Likes

I hate the term Instagram Model – as if there were such a thing. No, there are models and there are girls who post pictures on Instagram. Having photos on Instagram does not make you a model, and, if you are a model that posts pictures on Instagram, that doesn’t make you less of a model. They aren’t related. But, somehow when any girl posts pictures on the site, people think it’s all about ego and getting people to like you.

If I wanted people to like the real me, the last thing I’d show them is my picture. Looks can easily cloud other people’s better judgment. So the whole argument that models who use Instagram do so to make themselves feel better is silly. We model on Instagram for the same reason we model anywhere else – for money.

But is it even worth it? I mean every time I snap a picture of myself, I wonder who is actually looking at it. People say it is a way to gain exposure – and in this industry exposure is golden – but does the real money even pay attention to social media?

I’ve heard some stories about amateur models that had some success on Instagram. There they were, posting picture of things they love to do, and the next thing you know, some designer is sending them clothes and flying them to shoots. But I think they were so successful because they were amateurs, fresh faces. The designer wanted someone that hasn’t been seen before, someone that they already knew people would admire. Is it such a surprise they looked to Instagram?

That’s what I would do if I didn’t want to spend money on models with professional experience.

But for some reason, everyone believes Instagram would work for models.. that my posting would convince people that I’m just the ordinary girl, and that I’m beautiful even when I’m being ordinary.

I don’t mind that much. Being camera-ready, even in snapshots, is not hard when you spend so much time in front of a camera.

So, if Instagram did lead to money what would happen after my popularity attracted a client’s attention? The impressed designer would contact my agent and be told the real cost of professional beauty. I guess that works for some girls, but I don’t get why they didn’t just call a modelling agency in the first place, instead of scouring the internet for a girl that can look cute in the bathroom xxx

Bitch? No, Model

You can always recognize a model. It’s not because of the high cheek bones, or the long legs. It’s not about straight teeth and shiny hair. Do you realize how much of that stuff can be bought, or imitated with creative wardrobe? No, being a model is something way more than that- it’s not a look- it’s an attitude.

See, models are sort of like divas except they don’t need to do crazy things to draw attention. They simply draw attention. When I walk in the room, you better believe people stop and look. It’s part of the job description.

So maybe that’s why the world is so quick to judge; because they draw attention? For some of us, that attention is not always so flattering.

So the term ‘bad-girl model’ starts to float around. Let me explain something: models are not an over-dramatic reality show hoping for syndication. The bad stuff we do doesn’t involve stealing each other’s men or booby-trapping our friends makeup.

Models are seen as bad girls because they have so much power, and some of us choose to use that power for our own interest. Why wouldn’t you voice your opinion if you had one? Oh, right, because if you are a supermodel like Naomi, you are supposed to be the world’s pile of clay that is moulded to fit the designer’s wishes...

That’s on the runway, not in life. Unfortunately, the more successful a model gets, the more she is expected to be compliant.

But models are canvases of beauty and fashion – not opinions. If they were canvases of opinion they’d be politicians, like the beauty queen- turned public official Sarah Palin. So, they should have their own opinion, just like any other free thinking person. Except, how could something so pretty be so mean?

That is the problem society is having. They are paying to see something soft, nice, and attractive, and bad girl models give them that, but turn around and do things they don’t necessarily like.

I will give you my body, I will give you my smile… but the attitude that thing you truly love that is all mine.

The Waiting Game

So this week’s blog….it’s kinda work related kinda not, let me explain.

I’ve been off work ill again for the past couple of weeks hoping to return to work this Sunday. Again most people would love a couple weeks off to chill, it’s not exactly relaxing when you’re in excruciating pain.

But for the couple of hours a day I feel more like a human being I am as productive as I can be (I should probably continue resting, but I hate sitting around). So I’ve have some food, a shower, read and then I come on my laptop.

I’ve spent the past couple of weeks updating my portfolio, signing to new casting websites, contacting agents and creating my showreel.

Now I would have be able to complete all these tasks if I wasn’t playing ‘The Waiting Game’.

‘The Waiting Game’, is the state of limbo that I am currently in as I am ‘waiting’ on properties from previous jobs such as; footage from a short film – which I know has been completed, editing from a music video, my voiceover clips from a job, images from a couple of different photoshoots, (One of them the count is currently at 4 months approx., and that’s nothing I once had to wait over a year).

These people are other professionals in the industry and colleagues that I have worked with. I know some things take time and some things are out of the control of my colleagues, like health problems, not being able to finish shooting due to issues with the band, or if I was a TFP job and someone has to prioritize a paid job over me, that’s fine, I do get it and I’m genuinely an understanding person and I don’t usually let things like this bother me but now it’s got to the points where I now need some of these to apply for certain jobs.

Two of what I mentioned above I know I am getting back my work because the people have explained the situations and kept up to date and informed. Unfortunately the rest of what I mentioned I think is a lost cause…

So how much to I continue to pester, or do I give up? Trouble is the longer it takes, the lazier it makes me seem.

This is why I said this is kinda work related and not, because I realized I am playing this game constantly! I am constantly waiting for something or on someone to allow me to do the next thing. Basically I need to change things up a bit, change the plan but not the goal (pretty sure that’s a quote I saw on Instagram). I need to become more reliant on myself, if I can’t update my modelling portfolio edit my showreel, if I can’t do that write some blogs, if I can’t do that I should work, spend time with my family, go the gym, have a social life, travel and live a little.

Life certainly won’t wait around for me, so I’m not going to spend it waiting on anyone or anything xxx

Being Runway Thin Will Kill You

Each Fashion Week season, the issue of models and their weight is brought to our attention. Whether it’s the latest industry initiative to stop designers using unhealthily thin models, or society’s discontent with designers who consistently book underweight models, you can guarantee debate and controversy one way or another.

Russian model, Kira Dikhtyar once told Fox News that “packs of cigarettes, daily colonics, laxatives, Phentermine diet pills, prescription drugs that suppress the appetite,” are just some of the techniques employed by her colleagues to stave off hunger.

The 24-year-old said only one designer had turned her away for being too thin at New York Fashion Week this year. That designer was Elie Tahari. “So I guess I should applaud him,” Dikhtyar said.

So why is it that high-end magazines want more “full-figured” models on their covers these days, while high-end fashion shows are still seeking super thin, super young girls to roam the runway?

Maybe because the people that pick up magazines are consumers. They want to see people that relate to them, which will make the consumer more eager to buy products. But designers are showing their garments to the majority crowd, who are mostly retailers. The collections are also considered ‘drafts’, and those drafts are fitted to a mannequin that is size 0 or 2 dress size. The other concern of the designer is for the garments to flow, as well as be mesmerizing on the catwalk, and the way to accomplish that is for the dress, pants, gown etc. to be long. The only way to fit a long garment is with a model who is thin and tall.

I’m quiet torn with this issue. While it’s good that we are starting to see plus sized models in the industry I believe that we are giving the young women of today mixed messages. You can either be unhealthily skinny and be a model or be unhealthily overweight and be a model…

Where is the size 12 model? Who is 5’6 and is walking in flats. Who can rock a matching bra and pant set because she’s got the curves in just the right places. Where are the real models? xxx

Criticizing a model? Think twice...

Every time I’m on set I’m told I’m the talent and I’m beautiful. Models aren’t supposed to feel ugly, but have you ever thought about how ridiculous that request is? I mean, who goes around feeling invincible… in terms of their feelings, at least. For every 10 compliments I receive, it only takes 1 criticism to have me spending hours in front of the mirror, naked, trying to figure out if it’s true or not.

I remember one day a random girl at a casting said I had a large forehead. Her comment was one of 40 I received that day, but it stood out.

Four hours later, after I had thoroughly stared at all of my tear sheets, and spent 1 hour rearranging my hair, I was on the phone with colleagues of mine.

What one photographer said my look was ‘unique’. For me, that only validated my fear. I did have a large forehead. After crying, I pulled myself together and called my hairdresser. He reworked my hair to better frame my face.

Sure, all of this might have been a bit unnecessary – nobody I spoke to suggested I change my look- but after that one comment I couldn’t bear looking at myself in the mirror anymore. It hurt too much, and I could just see it in my head some bitchy girls talking about. It didn’t matter if there were 30 people surrounding me, worshipping every other part of my body… it was that one girl, and her judgmental, hateful comment that did the trick. Not only did it hurt at that one moment, it hurt the entire day.

So the next time you think about publically criticizing a model’s looks, think about how that might feel if it was you. Imagine how it feels to have the one thing you are known and loved for rudely criticized. I can tell you, it hurts. Yes, we receive praise, but we’re still human xxx

This Industry Isn't Always Fair

I think just about every model has a love/hate relationship with the industry. Probably the most frustrating thing about this business is that there are so many do’s and don’ts that you’re supposed to follow and yet there are still those exceptions to the rule that make things very unfair.

For example, I had a casting for a hair show. I showed up early and waited patiently with the other 30 models who showed up. The people holding the casting were presenting a new line of hair care products and were looking for models to showcase the new brand.

Luckily, they weren’t planning on cutting or colouring. The lady in charge thanked us for showing up early and on time and explained that they would be pulling girls up in small groups to evaluate their hair and that the rest of us could relax and wait until we were called.

The first group was about 7-9 girls with really long hair down their back. One of the stylists explained that some of the styles they needed required a lot of length while those with shorter hair would be required for the edgier looks. While they brushed, braided and played with the girls’ hair, the rest of us talked amongst ourselves.

Three girls walked into the casting 10-15 minutes late but were still accepted into the audition and were added to the group of girls being considered. While I and a number of the other girls thought it was crazy for anyone late to be allowed to participate, we kept our mouths shut. It is a business after all and you can’t let your emotions get the best of you.

After about 15 minutes, the lady in charge came to the rest of us and said, “Thank you for your time ladies, the casting is over and we have found our models.” Needless to say, there was a moment of shock, confusion and utter silence. Model to model glanced at each other as if to say, “Are they for real?” But as is custom, we gathered our things, smiled politely and thanked them (of course, all of us were cussing up a storm on the way out of the building!). The three girls who came late got the gig and two of the three girls had worked for the stylists before. Goes to show that it is definitely who you know.

Of course I was upset, as were the rest of the girls who wasted their time sitting in a room with each other while the stylists made their pick without giving any of us a chance. Honestly, if they only wanted girls with super long hair, that is what they should have told our agencies. To reward someone who is late to a casting is beyond me and I didn’t think it was fair that they openly announced which models had worked with them before (who ended up making the cut).

In my opinion, it was a waste of time and effort but that’s what happens. Life isn’t fair and neither is modelling. It just goes to show that no matter how well you follow the rules, there will always be instances where those who break them get the gig…but that doesn’t mean that you should do the same. It may not pay off right away, but stick to your good habits and eventually you will be rewarded. For every missed opportunity, there will always be something bigger and better xxx

Just A Walking Number

We are now living in a world where we put numbers, statistics and social media followings on our CVs. It’s no longer a name, but a number that defines us. As you read this on your smartphone, or maybe your laptop, just think, when did our presence on social media and in the digital world become more important than our real lives? We are so consumed with scrolling through the seemingly beautiful but essentially made up scenarios on Instagram or Tumblr, that our online images, whether the same as our real personas or not, are quickly becoming more important than who we actually are and what we can bring to the world. So, it’s not surprising that in the modelling industry, who you are on your social media accounts and how many followers you can reach, is quickly becoming the one box you need to check to achieve success.

Clients are now turning to girls who have this wide social media reach, to front their campaigns and walk in coveted spots in their runway shows. Reason being; it is very likely these models will post a backstage or runway snap on Instagram, where a further million people will see the clothes, which is a huge increase in awareness for a brand. This is perhaps the reason why the second youngest member of the Kardashian clan has found recent success as a high fashion model. Every appearance Kendall makes at a runway show, every cover she poses for, garners not only mass media attention but also the awareness of her 14 million Instagram followers.

The boom of social media has a direct effect on every model, the minute she steps into a casting. A large proportion of models now use apps on Ipads to display their books to clients. Not only do these apps display your portfolio, they now integrate a section to show how many followers you have on several social media platforms, such as Twitter and Instagram. A client can now decide, on the spot, that he or she will use a model based solely on her social media following, and not necessarily on the quality of her portfolio. Some big name models, who previously kept their profiles private, were forced by their agencies to go public, as they were losing out on jobs to lesser famous girls with larger numbers of followers.

Models, like everybody else, can use social media accounts to create a certain and often carefully crafted persona, which in turn can appeal to different clients. If you take a look at models’ Instagram accounts you can see some categories emerging. You have the fitness and wellbeing girls, who make it really known that they love yoga on the beach.

Then you have the ultimate big city cool girl, with impeccable street style and famous musician friends.

Or you have the bombshell swimsuit models….

You get the idea. Models use social media to constantly promote their niche, and the girls who know how to strategically market themselves, are the girls nabbing the jobs.

The importance placed on social media is even further highlighted by the biggest online community for modelling; Models.com. The website’s Model Rankings are famous for carving out the crop of models deemed noteworthy to be considered supermodels, and for discovering the hottest new faces from all over the world. However, in recent times the website has incorporated a new ranking list, named ‘Social,’ which tallies the models with the widest social media reach. As expected, at number one we can see Kendall Jenner, who actually comes in before supermodels Tyra Banks, Miranda Kerr and Gisele Bundchen.

One of the most influential magazines on the planet, American Vogue, dedicated its prestigious September issue cover to ‘The Instagirls': Joan Smalls, Cara Delevingne and Karlie Kloss. Joan has over half a million Instagram followers, Karlie; 1.3 million and Cara; a whopping 7.6 million. Even Candice Swanepoel admitted, in an interview with W Magazine, it is embedded in her Victoria’s Secret contract that she post a certain amount of Tweets and Instagram photos to her millions of followers.

So, from here, what is the future of modelling? Will the supermodels of the next generation be girls with a true talent for morphing into characters in front of the camera, or having a killer walk on the runway, or will they simply be brilliant selfie takers? It seems like the industry is favouring girls not based on how well they model, but based on the amount of people they can reach. Maybe talent doesn’t cut it anymore, but a follow sure will.

Model Myths Debunked

There are a few misconceptions flying around about models. So I thought I’d set the record a little straight. Here are a few myths (stereotypes) about models that aren’t exactly true…

1. All Models have an eating disorder

Believe it or not, not all models live on sticks of celery and two grapes a day. Models do actually eat and most eat really well with the exception of a takeaway or a tub of ben & jerrys…It’s their job to look the way they do, so they have to eat to fuel their bodies and keep the nutrients flowing for that flawless skin.

2. Model’s don’t exercise

Like I said, it’s their job to look the way they do. They exercise to be fit and to be healthy. The trend of the ultra-skinny model is definitely on its way out. Take a look at the victoria secret models. They’ve got abs of steel like no other.

3. Models get paid millions

Unless you’re a super model, no. Most models don’t get paid that much at all. After the agency takes their percentage and flights and accommodation are paid for. There isn’t much left. And if you’re only starting out, chances are you’re doing the gigs for free, purely for exposure and building a portfolio. The average amount a model makes a year is only £13,000.

4. All models have attitude and are stuck up

Models may have an attitude but they are not stuck up. Having an attitude is all part of the model look when working with the camera. Most are really lovely and sweet, and very professional. In their line of work it isn’t the best move for them to be rude, in most cases it’ll tarnish their rep.

5. Models get heaps of free stuff

Sadly no. Despite getting to wear all the extravagant and expensive clothes and accessories on the shoot. They don’t get to take them home. If you’re a super model maybe you might get to take home a few things every once in a while but that’s probably it. And if you are, it’s usually on loan – you’re pretty much expected to post to social media and promote it.

6. You have to be young and tall to model

Models can be any age. A common misconception is that you need to be young in order to model, there are so many different types of modelling, if you have the right look, there are plenty of opportunities out there for the more mature lady.

Even though it seems to be the status quo for all models to be over 5’10, it’s not necessarily a pre-requisite. Take these models; Anja Konstantinova – 163cm, Bambi Northwood-Blyth – 173cm, Miranda Kerr – 175cm and Cara Delevigne – 173cm, none of which are the typical height and they’re freaking super models. Even Kate Moss, she’s not even close to some of the other girls modelling.

7. All models are dumb

Umm no they’re not. Most models are actually quite savvy business people. Cheyenne Tozzi has her own lingerie line, Karlie Kloss is back at school, Elle Mcpherson has her own lingerie line and skin care range, Mirander Kerr has her own skin care range, Sasha Pavivori studied art at the St Petesburg Art Institute and Lily Cole was accepted into Kings College Cambridge.

8. Models get to holiday for free

Definitely not. Most have to pay for their travel expenses; they might get a little pocket money but mostly they have to fork out the money. Unless they’re booked directly, which is really only a flight and accommodation paid for. It might seem as if they get to holiday at these amazing locations (lets face it they do enjoy some down time) but they’re there to work and literally fly in for the shoot and fly out once it’s done.

9. All models have amazing hair and flawless skin

The amount of product they have on their faces, shoot after shoot is definitely not healthy for the skin. Models are like everyone else; they have breakouts too. Combined with the amount shit that goes into their hair, dying it, teasing it etc – not good. There have been models that have had to cut their hair just to get it back looking healthy.

Besides lot more work goes into re-touching images than most people realise. Some models can be completely altered in pictures from the way they normally look. There are many tricks used to create that flawless look.

10. Being a model is easy

I’m sorry, but have you seen some of the shoots? There is often a lot more going on behind a photo shoot than the finished picture presents. Just watch an episode of America’s Next Top Model and you’ll see that shoots are not always as glamorous as they appear. Think girls in bikinis in winter and that’s only one example. Have you seen some of those awkward poses? They look so difficult and some of the shoes they have to wear – freaking huge!

11. Models have shoots every day

Again, sadly not true. Most people believe models just have photoshoots every day. Models might go to castings, meetings and fittings every day but not shoots. They have to book the gigs first. Models might only have one shoot this week and wait another two for the next. There can often be periods of time with nothing but castings before work starts coming in xxx